chapter
4:
first
encounter
she
understood
that
even
bad
impression
was
better
than
being
unknown,
better
than
being
fotten
or
overlooked.
因为她知道坏印象也好过默默无闻没有半点印象，也好过被淡忘，被遗忘。
she
wanted
zhang
guoying
to
remember
that
during
their
time
at
the
imperial
academy,
girl
named
cui
yu
had
loved
him
with
deep,
passionate,
and
unyielding
devotion.
她就是要让张国英以后如果但凡想到自己在京师学堂的学业时光，就会想到在这裏曾经有那么个女孩名叫崔玉，爱他，爱得惊天动地，爱得痴心妄想。
regardless
of
whether
zhang
guoying
held
even
the
slightest
affection
for
her,
she
aimed
to
plant
seed
of
love
for
him
in
his
heart.
不管他张国英会不会对自己有那么一丁点好感，自己也要在张国英心中种下一颗自己爱他的种子。
after
all,
it's
difficult
for
anyone
to
despise
someone
who
truly
loves
them.
因为对一个爱自己的人，但凡是人都很难真正地讨厌吧！
for
cui
yu,
this
was
high-stakes
gamble.
she
risked
her
reputation
and
was
determined,
for
the
time
being,
to
hold
on
to
this
one
lifeline
until
she
could
find
better
one.
this
strategy
was
akin
to
the
saying,
”a
talented
bird
chooses
the
best
tree
to
perch
on,
and
wise
minister
chooses
the
best
lord
to
serve.”
这对于我崔玉来说是一次豪赌，我赌上了自己的名声，也打算暂时就在这一棵树上吊死，直到我能找到另外一棵更好的树，这就是所谓的良禽择木而栖，贤臣择主而事的谋略。
this
high-stakes
gamble
tested
my
ability
to
judge
people
and
my
own
wisdom.
although
it
seemed
had
won
the
bet,
the
chaos
of
war
had
taken
its
toll.
how
many
people
were
displaced
这一次的豪赌赌的是我自己看人的眼光，赌的是我自己的智慧，而我似乎赌赢了，战火烽烟，多少人流离失所？
how
many
lives
were
sacrificed
as
the
old
and
new
dynasties